The last two weeks have been crazy busy….literally CRAZY! Not only have I had my normal, I decided to add onto it by doing the decorations for my daughter’s 15th birthday turn up! Crazy right?! Oh and then my sister Kim’s birthday celebration is the night before it! Fun times! And in the midst of all of that, my body decided it wanted to fight me more than usual. But it’s all good….or is it. Am I the only one that has storms happen, when they “shouldn’t” happen? Am I also the only one that tries to keep it together, pray, smile, and stay hopeful, even when I’m catching straight up HELL? I mean, if I am that is a GREAT thing because I don’t want anyone to catch so much hell, that every time they put on Neosporin and the healing begins, that another hot coal is stepped on and BURN.
I mean, my life is FAR from perfect…did I say far? I meant to say very, very, very, very, very FAR from perfect. But one thing that is perfect is the God I serve. Even in my struggles, storms, heartache….I still can find the joy because of God. Sometimes I am like, “Am I crazy for finding the joy when I have just cried painful, gut wrenching tears?” Like, today, for instance….I cried so hard, and then decided to scream. Not a baby scream, but a grown woman scream that had built up and needed to get out of me. And boy, was I glad I did that! I sat and talked with God for a while, and then I just started quoting scriptures. And then when I couldn’t think of anymore scriptures to quote, I put LaShun Pace on repeat as she sang, This Place.
Why am rambling on about today? First, it’s for someone who is still trying to just keep it together, and needs that smile of, “yes, I’m not by myself. This chick seems to have more issues than me, I’m good!” Second, it’s because if I stay silent about the trials I experience, I’m not encouraging others that they are not alone. But as I continue to face the trials, I get stronger in Christ. I have to choose to stay with Him, even when I want to throw in the towel. I don’t want Jesus to tell me, “you of little faith, depart from me”, I want Him to say, “well done”. And as I face each “good” day, and then repeat while trying not to step on the hot coals, so that I don’t have to put on Neosporin, I just have to stop and keep thanking God. Sometimes I don’t even know what I’m thanking Him for, I just know I need to do it. My peace of mind is in my thankfulness to Him. I mean, without Him, I am nothing, and I am grateful for Jesus unconditional love and endless provisions.
I want to leave y’all with one of my favorite scriptures. I pray that you were encouraged in some way by this blog. I pray that you know that you are not alone in the good, bad, crazy, sane, happy, sad moments..etc. God is there and trust that He has someone in place just for you in your time of need.
So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.~Isaiah 41:10
Smile and be a blessing!
If you would like to receive Jesus into your heart, say this prayer:
Dear Jesus, I know that you came, died and rose again. I ask you to forgive me. I confess with my mouth that you are Lord. Come live inside of me. Amen!
You are saved!