It’s been almost a year since I submitted my first post. This past year has had a lot going on in it. I’m sure most of us can say, “wow, this past year was so not what I expected it to be.” I mean, I know I can. I had such high hopes of the things I would accomplish and overcome. I just knew with all of me that my health would be amazingly turned upside down and that I would be so much stronger and healthier than this time last year. I just knew our finances would look so much better and that our debt would be paid off. I just knew that my marriage would be stronger. I just knew that my love for myself would be greater. I just knew that my relationship with God would be so much stronger and closer….I mean I just knew all of these things and so much more. Why? Simple…because of my faith.
Faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see (Hebrews 10:12)….I mean if I don’t have faith then what do I have? I have to believe that things can and will get better. I also have to put in the work. And trust me, I have put in work….but there were so so many times this past year that I wanted to give up (and did several times). I mean, I’m busting my butt but it just seemed like I always fell short. I know that the reason for this is because everyday, I may have woken up and thanked God, I may have praised and worshipped, read my Bible and truly desired to follow Christ every second of every day, but the question is, was I fully committed?
I would like to believe that I was. But in all honesty, every day I didn’t fight for all the things that I was praying for as much as I should have. That was my problem. With my faith, I have to put in the work. I have to continue praying and living the life that I am believing for, even in my current state. If I want a great marriage, I have to fight for my marriage and work on my marriage even in it’s hardest moments. If I want to be out of debt, I have to follow the budget that is set out, even on the toughest days with the greatest temptations. If I want to be closer and closer to God, then I have to take the time with God as I would in pursuing any relationship.
If things get tough, that means you are doing something right! Keep going. Never stop going for what you believe is right. Keep the faith. Put in the work. It will be worth it. A year from now, I still believe that I can achieve so many things that I am believing for because I serve a God that will never leave or forsake me. He is a God that still performs miracles every day. He’s performing one right now through me and that’s because I am typing this blog. I didn’t have many viewers this past year. I didn’t reach lives the way I was hoping I would with this blog. I thought, “who am I”. But now I say, I am Nikita and I am God’s child. I can do this. I want to do this because God touched me with this passion and I am about doing his work even when it is hard for me to get past myself.
I pray that you are encouraged today.
Smile and be a blessing.